If someone lies to you, murder him and lie about murdering him.. Maybe that's what I was doing all these years. And when I come to the point of finding my own guilt, then I would realize,"Every snowflake in an avalanche pleads not guilty.. Which snowflake should I punish..??" That's what we are. We can judge everything but never ourselves.
Before beginning something, I always say to myself that I shouldn't do anything stupid this time. But, I have never known that I'm thinking to do something stupid because I wasn't thinking about what I should but what I shouldn't.
I felt strange gravity as I grew up like loosening those fingers, one-by-one that bound me from my birth. It had never occurred to me that our lives which had been so closely interwoven, could unravel with such speed. If I would have known, maybe I would have kept tighter hold of them and not let unseen tides pull us apart (Referring to my 2 best buddies) and that maybe the reason why I decided to be unorthodox,"A man who sings for his bread and likes his bread."
I always thought that PROMISE is a big word. But, when life itself didn't promise you.. nor God, then why did I believe in You rather than Me..!!
Some said they'll never leave.. LIE.
Some said they'll love till death.. LIE.
Life is made of such sweet lies and what matters is how you face the time you finally realize those were just lies. You may ask,"Wouldn't life be much better without these lies..?? " But, the truth is, the times you lived on those big lies were the only times you actually lived.
I always believed that the early bird catches the worm but it's the second mouse that gets cheese. And I was pretending that I'm the one that's getting cheese but never knew that I was worm. And I thought that it was fate written by God. But, never knew this:
God speaks to those who takes time to listen and
He listens to those who take time to pray.
I was always busy in praying for what He gave and for what He didn't but never heard Him. In this process, I forgot my own shadow and when death, dark shadow were always walking by my side.. aren't they enough to stab me in the back if they are standing behind..?? And at last I thought to myself that in my clear shadow all things will be purified.
