Guilty Phase

It was 7am. I was going to attend an interview. It is the same road that I travel everyday. First day I saw a women sitting on the road and I thought she was sitting under a tree. While returning (at 5pm), I saw the same lady sitting under the same tree. I thought she was doing that because she is waiting for someone else to come. I observed her for three days. And she used to come early in the morning and leave late in the evening. I didn't understand what she was doing until one day I returned at 1pm. She was sitting under the same tree under sun with a small cover spread in-front of her. I thought to wait that day. I stayed there for two hours and she didn't even move. I was starving but don't really know whether to offer her a meal or just simply walk away.

Same road, second curve.
-- He can't walk. He carries a bag everyday with him. I don't really know how he does that or someone else will leave him there. There was a heavy rain in the afternoon and I have to pass from that road. I didn't see the women but I saw this man drenched with water without a cloth on his body. He was leaning on the road. I don't know what to say or don't know what to give.

Whenever I pass through that road, I come across these two people. Some where deep inside me, I feel guilt and I just keep my head down and will walk away from that sight too quickly. I say to myself, what are you when you can't offer someone at least a meal or give them a proper living (at least for a day) and as everyone, I say to myself.. why should I when everyone else is busy with their life?

I asked myself, who are these people..? Why are they on roads..? Don't they have a home to stay..? Different people have different stories. Some suffer with alien-ism (mental disorder or illness). Everyone has to pass this phase in one's life. Some suffer for their family and from their family. Those little things such as anger, inference makes them apart. Instead of having patience, they are forced to depart. We find 10% of this people somewhere in the deepest corner of the world and the rest 90%..among us.

We think we are moving too fast but what we have to understand is we are lagging behind. And since we think that we are moving too fast, we never have or had time to look at them and take a move towards them. In our view, he / she is someone shallow-brained and mad. But in his / her view, we all are insane and shatter-brained people. Fear, pain, suffering, betrayal, concerns and lots and lots of such phases that are caused by WE made their life exponential-hard.

To understand someone, one needs to go near to them and ask about his / her life that has been spent by them. Everyone is living among us and with us but the truth is, we never turn to them.


1 comment:

  1. You might not feel guilty anymore, as the first step towards solving an issue over which you have little control is to write about it and share with others. Very human post...Keep it up.

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