Understanding Life - Part 1

LIFE IS UNCERTAIN.

Karma - Kharma - Kilbisa

Cause (act) - Effect - Guilt

If I tell you that you will die in your sleep, will you dare to sleep? The world which is highly technologically driven today, can it stop; when nature turns on its Ugra Roopam (extreme anger form)? Let's not go to extremes in the very beginning. Let's start small. So, can we even control ourselves by not committing a mistake (willingly or unwillingly)? And, who measures the effectiveness of the Karma (act)? I'm not Devatha (God) to decide the fate; but the fear of mrtyu (death) is as such.

People you meet; The time you meet; The perception you form; The path you choose; The journey you travel; The situations that you would be put into; The experience you take out of it; The happiness / guilt you carry there after; Can you be certain of at least one of this to be known to you beforehand? NO isn't it? That's why.. It's UNCERTAIN.

Let's go a step behind. Do we even know that we were destined to be reborn again? How can we be so sure that this is our rebirth? How can we possibly say that we are not accidental? Are we really destined to take birth; leaving behind other million competitors? Are we truly that fortunate? And if yes, is it just because, Devatha wants to punish us for what we have done in our previous birth? If moksha is just about acceptance and bearing the pain, why is hell built for? Does that mean, rebirth is more painful than hell? Only the dead soul attains moksha.

We all go through different phases in life. And we all have past. Do we even know what triggers us in the next minute and what if, that would be life changing moment of our life? The one's who says that there's only logic in this cosmos, they all have already fallen for the magic! And those who believes in logic, but not rebirth, the question to them would be, "What are they living for?" - Themselves? - What for? Whom for? Only the dead doesn't speak about past.

Everyone of us have plans. And if the soul of every plan is to attain the happiness, why aren't we actually happy with the result of the plan that we made? What stopped the plan? Who and why did they stop the plan? If it involves other entity, why did we even allow other entity to alter the plan? Why at all invite other entity? Is it planned? No? Then who made it happen? Does that mean, the plan is already known to someone? Only the dead doesn't create a plan.

Time. When we say time's up - do we even think about our time getting closer? Whose time are we really deciding? Actually, is it us who is deciding time? What's our time by the way? What reference are we really attaching for every second passed? Do you think, time will remember what we have done or care in those moments? Why is that we try to get hold of time? Or, can we really get hold of time? If YES, why do we die? Why can't we be immortal? Only the dead doesn't speak about time.

Emotions. Crazy and beauty this is. It makes us like what we don't like; It makes us break what we don't like or the other don't like (no questions asked). Actually, do we even ask that something that we are breaking is willing to be broken? Doesn't that have an emotion? Why is that, it has to become destroyable object because of our emotion? Are we, the deciders of their life span? If so, don't you think, there'll be someone who can decide our life span?

Conclusion? There's no conclusion. When life itself is uncertain, what conclusion are we really looking for?

Past - A Choice

Distorted present she lives in.

Sorted past she believes she’s with.

Belief she had on one.

Feeling turned togetherness.

Societal opinions didn’t flatter her until;

The opinions of “that one” started pouring in without;

Emotions of Her and Perspective of Her.

Opinions she formed because of one.

Clearer it became with the run.

Sorted it seemed with none;

With the hope thrown in bin and;

Optimism flushed in sink.

The list she scrolls to get along with one now,

May reach the end to get along with none.

And, no wonder if;

She stood there in the past being in present.

Want to blame PAST?

If choices made can ruin the past;

Can’t the same choice make better present and future?

And, what if the choice made by YOU to YOURSELF;

Is another "the one" who ruined the past?

Page Turn Over

Turning the page doesn’t hurt;

But,

The frozen moment of the page.. in memory does..!!

The characters of the page does..!!

A mind wrapped around the character does..!!

The span of life the page has taken away does..!!

Being on the same page does..!!

Turning the page doesn’t hurt;

If you cherish the frozen moments of the page..!!

If you let the character roll..!!

If you let go thoughts from mind..!!

If you can understand the importance of time..!!

And,

Above all,

Letting yourself to turn the page and meet new character;

Who can freeze a moment of yours, creating memories..!!

Right Question

It would be a lie if someone believes or said that the past can be forgotten. It'll never be is what everyone knows. But people tend to make peace by not asking the questions. And I believe they do so because the answers to the questions wouldn't exist or it would make them feel unimaginable to themselves.

But, when one day people tend to ask right questions to themselves (importantly) or others, we barely hear "NICE" in return. It would make feel better for that instance but again, it'll be the same as the questions which aren't answered but made peace. Because a decision made for something will always be against something else - no matter how hard one tries to settle it.

"If not now, when?" - Generation started to believe this. People who would like to experience (which is not wrong), always forgets the last word in the sentence - "When?". The time they tend to realize and see the consequences, first we hear "How?" and then "When?". In the process of living in present, we unknowingly build a future where we fear to question the right questions.

Some think that they have been chosen in what they've been (are) doing. And some other thinks that they've been cursed to be doing the doings. More or less, what matters in the end is, "We chose to do it." Aren't we? It "might" have been different, if one asked right questions. But, how many would go after questions after all.

When we fail to answer right questions, I think, we should believe that it's not we to decide (not judge) what should be happening. And it definitely says that we aren't the attorney. If you have come this long, you would have read the above paragraph or remember me saying that, "It would have been different if asked right questions." Now you see, I also said that, a decision made for something will always be against something else. And what I meant is, "We have to live with it."

I do sometimes believe that someone is always in charge of what we're doing. Everything seems to be working as it was already planned. The moment we move out of it, we believe that we made a move. But, did we or can we is what I ask myself. Truly, I don't have the gut to answer it. And sometimes I believe that "Karma" is something which is taking care of everything.

One day, there might be someone who comes to question the way I'm questioning. And sometimes, a question to a question will be the answer I guess. Thinking all this, I know that one day I'll read this blog again. Then, sit alone, wait for someone to start asking the questions to the questions from the day this has been written.