Angel

I see her everyday in my dream

With her curly hair shining,

Wishing air to blow her hair

And

Moon, to focus her face..!!

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There she is.. 

An Angel, where my endless scribble

Felt short of admiring her beauty..

Her eyes were speaking a language

Which I couldn't understand.

Maybe I was dreaming in her eyes

Which only I understand.

With her every blink

She was becoming my center of gravity

After all, that's what I wished. ;)

With her every smile

I felt a connection between her heart and cheek

Maybe I will pull them one day

When I'll be the reason for that smile.

Maybe I might need a touch to get back

With her eyes, smile and a bonus hug

To make my dream memorable

And 

Making the dream alive when I'm alive.

Easy Pass

It is easy to give

When you don't understand it.

It is easy to give

When you have it.

It is easy to take

When they give it.

It is easy to take

When they understand and give it.

It is easy to take

When you take it

Without knowing why they gave it

And

How they got it.

It is easy to express

What you feel and profound the slogan

"I have right to speak and express"

Not knowing what they feel and felt.

It is easy to react

Not knowing what they suffered.

And give a shit of

Not knowing why you reacted.

It was all easy

So

I walked and walked

While

Clouds started gathering,

Calling wind with wings..

Asking black sky to thunder..

And waves to roar, break the brigades..

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I saw the wave coming

And dived in it.

Not knowing where it is taking.

Since

I believed everything is easy.

Love - A Reason to Smile

Love..!!!

A reason to smile

Which

Comes from the heart

Filling with tears

And

Making the land whole again..!!!

Love..!!!

A reason to smile

When

It comes from the heart

Breaking the curdle

And

Make you whole again..!!!

Love..!!!

A reason to smile

To smile back

When

It comes to you

Believing You

And

Make them whole again..!!!

Love..!!!

A reason to smile

For loving me back

And

Closing me -- With a Smile..!!!

Truth of Life

Everyone's life begin with a cry

Where

Happiness and Sadness aren't defined.

I stood and fell

While

Learning to stand and then walk.

My direction would have been easy

If

My paths are lined with opposite poles.

But,

You never know

Because

That's the way the world is. - "With mysterious folds".

Faith was dominated by fear

Engulfing happiness

And

Diminishing the possibility of growing faith.

But,

I have to get over it

And

Learn to swim as I learned to

Stand and then Walk.

Unbreakable Chain

I thought you set me free

When

You taught me to tackle harsh blows of the sea.

I thought you set me breathe fresh air

When

You taught me to be friends with nature.

I thought you set me a path to walk

When

You started shutting each door I walked.

I thought you'll let time speak

When

You chose me to stand before the crowd.

I thought you'll never make me a stone

When

You know that breaking a stone will be a stone.

I thought, I thought and I thought..

That leaves never stop falling

Which

Hide the path so quietly

And

Forgot that I was set free.

Miracle

I don't believe in coincidence nor believer of something that comes for free. I believe that I get what I deserve and work hard if I actually need something. Even if I get a chance of taking at free of cost, I believe that it won't last long. People always get confused when they take something from someone and some of it may be returned back and some never.

I said confused because people change when they take something from you. Mainly, when it has to be returned. I borrowed when I'm in need and I returned when I had. But, there is a gap between borrowed and returned date and that defines what you are and how you behave. This post will never end if I start taking examples on this. In me, they stand at high level because they saved me. Everything counts here and that includes at least a single word meant for my good sake and even who loved me.

So, what's my point? Well, we have a base now. We can build a architecture. Every architecture is built with imagination and dream in mind. I had one imagination and I dreamt one. And here is my story.

Lessons in life will be repeated until they are learned and I don't feel shame to say that loud. I had a dream. My dream said that I have to repay something to someone to whom I have promised to be returned but on few conditions. Conditions didn't apply so I said why should I repay that back? Something horrible happened when I said that and I immediately woke up. In the morning, I said to myself that I have to return it back at any cost but I'm empty handed. I can't sit and dream whole day without leaving to office.

I left office at around 10pm and my thoughts were still revolving around the dream that I have dreamt. How can one get a dream when one has not thought about it or discussed about it previous night or even forgot because of the failed conditions. I don't have an answer for that. It just happened and may be that's the reason why people say, when nothing goes your way, "Believe in magic".

It's almost 11.45pm. I left the bus and to reach home I have to walk at least a kilometer. I wasn't able to get out of what I dreamt. As I was passing by, something magic happened. There's a shop on my way and it's well equipped. I saw the shop locked and the keys were on the wall built in-front of the shop. I want to mention two things here.
1. I was desperately in need of money.
2. Keep aside something called "Dharma" and leave everything to "Karma".

Well, you might ask, "What is surprise out here? You were in need and that shop owner has forgot his keys." That's just coincidence and remember what my first line said: I don't believe in coincidence. So here is to whom I have to repay. It is to God and the shop is facing exactly to the idol present in the temple... How can I describe that?

And again, as I said before, I don't take which comes free. Whole shop was in my hand and I would have swept everything and drag the family on the road. I felt that's not correct and gave the keys to the owner in the morning. I saw him smile while returning keys and that smile meant a lot than my own greed.

I know this is out of reality. But, miracles do happen. :)

Wake Up Call

I changed.
My way of thinking changed.
My priorities changed
After I read this

Hasta la muerte todo es vida..!!
(Until death, all is life)

And I believed that because
I have to survive.
Now,
"Does it make me selfish?"
I can strongly hear NO and that includes you.

I asked myself,
"Is this the life you live?",
"Is this the life you want to live?"
-- I became numb --
I wanted to say that I helped my friends
And my inner voice said,
You helped one: Who trusts and likes you!
And,
"Didn't they repay your debt?"
-- I again became numb --

Then what actually is life?
What makes me in the end say that,
"I have really lived?"
And then I heard this beautiful line:

You really lived,

When you have done something for someone

Who can never repay you.

 

Black Magic

Someone whispered, "I Won!!!"

Strong, Weak

Strong says, "I will Win"
While
Weak says, "I will die to Win".
Strong has power, logic and determination.
Weak has will and wish.

 ---- Time passed ----

Winter arrives. Deforestation supports.
Nothing to burn.
Body gets poisoned, mind fills with jealous
Weak possess anger, lose hope

New logic is written. Installed drivers doesn't support.
Configuration fails.
Strong gets weak, logic gets decrypted.

 ---- In the end ----

Weak said, "I lacked logic and determination".
Strong said, "My logic got decrypted".

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One wished and willed while the other determined
But
Both forgot to Respect
Threw soul where gravity fails.

And then soul whispered, "You won..!!"

Diastereomic Truth

I loved a girl. She wasn't my caste or religion nor even speaks my language. I thought our love will last long but she came to know that I'm not perfect to her while I tried to convince her that I'll change the way she needs. I loved her even more and I barely remember how I behaved with my family. As the girl made her mind clear, I wasn't able to. I was involved and habituated to the climate.

I always had relationship with God. Whenever I criticize Him, He'll come up with an idea where He proves that He exists. And I counter attack Him and He does the same. When I broke up, I asked why? And He didn't answer. I lost hope in Him and days passed. I almost became materialistic (read my previous posts and you'll get that). Then He made his move. He did something that made my family drown. He bonded a relationship to my sister and a guy of not my caste and religion.

My family broke. Not because they got married but she broke something called "TRUST". It's not so strange to see that now-a-days trust has become logical but not magical. Now I come to the point that I actually want to make.

People call this generation as modern, civilized, pragmatic and the list continues. Many of my age (mine is 24) and less thinks that their families are against them when they come to love. When someone gets over 18, they are free to choose their life. I don't understand why they pin point parents as culprits when they say teenage love. If you are in love and over 18 then just go to it and do whatever you want with your boy or girlfriend. Have sex and children and believe me, your children will follow your footsteps and when they do the same as you did, sit in a dark room and think what the hell have you done.

I don't understand the meaning of father's and mother's day too. People say that their father is their super-hero and their mother as if she is the mother earth. Then I ask, how dare you leave them without informing where you are leaving. If your 1-2 months or 1-2 years of love weigh a ton then theirs weigh billion tons. If your love makes you dare to step out and argue with them, what should their love do? - They should have killed you. (Believe me, love has the power to kill)

Now ask me, loving a girl or a boy of other caste or religion is crime? Certainly not. Then why are your parents against it? Why can't they understand? I'll tell you why they can't. They were born in a society where four people knew them. They born in a society where they are charged in-front of a village if  their family members get engaged with inter-caste guy or girl. They are born in a society where they have to keep their head down  if their children left home without informing. And they are in a society where they still believe that their children love them no matter what their age is.

Whatever you read above, my family faced those. Only I and my family know how it feels and how hard it is for me and them when someone left breaking one's heart and trust.

People say, fuck the world. Just live your life. Do you know what someone says to them if you leave your home? - They abuse your parents since they can't get hold of the family and the mark that you left on them will never fade no matter how big the tsunami is. I have seen parents killing themselves and I have seen my parents crying whole day.

People say that their parents ask them to marry and sleep with a guy or a girl whom they never came across. Now ask your parents how they got married and weren't they happy. If they are happy then you too will. I ask, do you come across of your so called girl/boyfriend when you are born? You met as strangers and then got into a relationship right? Then why can't that same-thing happen after marriage? When you are allowed to break a relationship and patch with other, you too have convenience to break your marriage and patch with other. What guarantee can you provide to your parents that your partner won't leave you in the sea? Of course the same thing might miss fire in their case but in that case you'll have a chance to come back to your family and if you choose your way then it is highway.

I sincerely request everyone (those all who are reading) to please stop criticizing your parents in name of love. They don't deserve to stand in-front of everyone and keep their head down. And if they keep their head down for you, they are dead and worst thing that happened to them is "Your birth".

Love is never a crime. But the approach you choose defines the result. I kept on thinking why God chose my sister leaving me behind. But after a year, He made me know what actual love is but I still fight with Him because I have my questions unanswered.

A Fortune

I woke up with a tormenting dream
Where I tried to find peace and

Found you in utmost unbearable and unstoppable form.

I tried to complain on you
When,

I want to master myself

With all my forces accumulated

And with a tyrant grip

Where

 Only I know what unbearable inner struggle I fought.

My thoughts and hope were to end
Where you made me realize that
A poor just need pieces of bread to live

Which are fallen from a rich man's table.

Now I say to myself that
I have to resign myself with the fact

That, one should not ask a fortune

That one doesn't deserve

And stop crying, complaining.

You!! may be just a machine ticking whole day
but never gave me a clue what's your intention is.
And after all, no one survived

Who tried to control you.

Burnt Bones

There is no justice written

In this world.

It is what you make when

your bones are burnt and left

as a black stick.

When the fire has gone out,

Someone might have written

Something new

In the ashes

But

It takes a great sky to find

That one line written inside you.

It is difficult to

Feel special when you are lost.

And,

You might think that

You are leaving with

The light that fades quickly

But,

Believe that

You are learning to be no-one

 To be someone one day.

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You are arriving.

Being Myself

It was 2 am.

I couldn't sleep.

Wanted to call few

But,

I knew I won't find a room.

I know I don't have right to blame you.

But,

I blame myself for searching you.

People said that I'm straight forward

And

Warned me that I'll be cut first.

And

They also said that they

Hide my path with falling leaves.

But, 

At least I never wore a mask

To cut you.

Yes, I'm sad.

But, 

At least I'm being who I'm to myself.

.....

I have hands to pat my shoulder.

I'm ST (Scheduled Tribe)

What do you think of yourself? You know better than Dr B. R. Ambedkar who received Bharat Ratna and wrote India's Constitution? Or you know more than what High Court and Supreme Court judges know? Do you even know about what you are against?

Do you even know what statistics say? Do you know what percentage of your people live in India or your place? Or do you know what percentage of reservation has been given to your class? Do you think Ministry of Social Justice and Empowerment committee (India) is a committee of fools and making you a fool?

What do you want to spread by posting pictures on Facebook and writing answers on Quora? You want likes and upvotes for what you posted and wrote or just want to divide people? Politicians are doing enough in this regard and you..being young blood, is doing what your ancestors did. 

You have guts??... Be loud. Prove to Indian Government that it's Constitution is wrong and outdated. But before doing that, walk on every stone. If not, slap yourself for criticizing your constitution.

You have money? Your parents have? Then why don't you ask you or your parents to distribute the money and make everyone equal in your country? What is the need of BPL (Below Poverty Line) when you do that? Then why is Government calculating BPL? Do you want poor to be poor? If not then offer your status and then ask government for one religion.

Yes. I have been criticized and mocked by my own friends. But here I'm, standing tall and challenging you to deliver at least an inch of change. You can't and you'll never because the one who suffered and bounced is the one who remembers what they were and they'll be the one who stands and delivers the change.

Yes, I'm Palithya Uma Maheswar Naik and I belong to Scheduled Tribe, lives in India.